N/A : Wieeehh, it's finished~ (bling!bling). My will to write and the story pops up from no where. I'm using Kags PoV. I'm sorry for the error of grammars and the OOC-ness. I hope you enjoy it! Happy Reading~!!!! :)
Desclaimer : How much I want, How hard I tried, and How much I prayed, Inuyasha isn't mine. I don't own Inuyasha or the song.
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Library, my heavens and second home. The solitude that sometimes I need, always freely I get here. And, there’s AC, thing I need in this season.
My smartphone played Angel’s Cry by Mariah Carey and Neyo, a song which remain me how foolish I was. But, even now, I’m still a foolish, can’t choose another option or make my own way.
Flashback
Listening news, worst of the worst, from the doctor himself made me wanting to throw up. I couldn’t believe and didn’t want to believe. Not long ago, him and I just had an argument, big one no less. We argued about child I had since one week before. Yes, we agreed for not have any baby. We wanted to persue our carrier first.
But, it seems it wouldn’t happen.
2 weeks ago, I had those sickness for pregnated woman. I didn’t want to believe and so, I went to sango’s house, told everthing about my sickness. She, as midwife, told me to test my theory and then it proved right. I cried, afraid what would happen. Then, what I feared was happening. He was mad, really a worst of all. Immediately, after gave me some of his wrath, he went out to who-knew-where.
Not almost a day, I got telephone from hospital that he had car’s accident and he was at hospital. Instinctly, I went to hospital and here I was
I really wanted some cameras coming out or somebody said it was a joke only. Oh my, please!
But, I didn’t have any of that. I could both feel my tears wanting to tome out and how hard I breathed.
“Thank you. Excuse me, please,” shortly replied me then exited first.
I was fastening my steps until I reached toilet. I cried hard on the floor. My sobs echoed like it was voices from another world.
“Sessomaru... How? Why?! What should I do!?!” said me between my sobs, despirated because of him, because my husband, Sessomaru
My attention moved to a woman, no, 2 women that came with negative auras, wrath and hate. My efforts to stand up were useless because as I did it, one of them, Kouru, mother of sessomaru, slapped me until I hitted wall behind.
“It’s all because of you! This is why I don’t want you to be my daughter-of-law!” snapped her.
Then, there was a kick from another one, Isame Yayoi, one of many perfect demoness from Kouru-san’s perspective. After that, she pulled my hair harshly and said, “ If Sesshomaru died, I swear, I would kill you. Mark my word, wench.”
They left me alone, coughed bloods. I tried checked and started to heal my baby. I was grateful my baby was okay. Having their dad here, dying, was enough for them.
I tried to stand once more and left. When I walked in corridors, I heard some doctors debating. Their voices loud enough for me. I didn’t know it was either a miracle, gift and help from God, of some fucking bad luck and sign for me to end it all.
I took a really deep breath.
“I told you, Jineji! We don’t have any volunteer. Our supplies for this are running out. It ha—“
“Excused me,” said me little frightening, “I'm sorry for eavesdropping your conversation. But, I.. I want to be volunteer.”
Eyes of both doctors shined brightly with hopes. One of them, Jineji I believed he was called before, asked, “And you are...”
“Kagome, Kagome Higurashi”
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I looked through thick windows. Sessomaru with bandages on his head and still unconscious since 3 days ago. Various weird things around him, like he depended on those. I wanted to choked because the sadness.
It was only 11 PM, one hour before his operation, which mine, too.
I smiled mocking my self. Our divorce had finished, and I was no longer his wife or mate. His family had knew and because them I could divorce him without his absence, completely.
It was better.
For umpteenth time I said it.
But that fact didn’t sink in fully.
How foolish I was.
“Kagome, lets” said softly Kaede at end of corridor. For the last time I looked at him.
I love you.
End Flashback
I feel someone crush from beside me. Voice of giggles reaches my ears, it’s like a bell. I smile when I realize who is she. Then, little hands guides my right hand to her hairs. I pat her before she asks me to sit on my lap.
“There, my otome!” said me while I hug her from behing, “so, what story was Rin-san and Kohaku-kun telling today?”. Her eyes shines brighly with excitement but I cut her off, “Let’s first we go home. We will make here more gloomy or the worst of all ... storm! So, let's going home~, Okay?”
“Hai, Mama!”