I Lovingly Hate You. by xXDarkApplesXx

Chapter 1

3 years ago 

I ran away, as fast as I could, away from all the memories, him, her, everyone, them.

It was just too much, I couldn't take it anymore. I ran until my legs couldn't carry me any

farther. I sobbed into my hands, the tears welling up and falling like a waterfall, I wondered

if they would ever end. I stopped sobbing, but the tears kept coming. I walked home that

day and touched my guitar for the first time in 7 years. I put my guitar under my arm, pencil

in hand and paper on the stand, I wrote a song. The words flowing from my mind through

the pencil on to the paper. From that day on, I went to a daily lounge and sung my songs.

They were always full of sorrow, sadness, pain. Many things were weaved into the words,

on the first day I sung at the lounge, people were moved by my words, some crying at hearing

the pain in my voice, others looking away in shame at what they've done to their others.

Present time

I walked towards the lounge, which not long after I discovered it was named Garasu No Namidawhich was Japanese for Glass Tears. I walked into Glass Tears and went backstage, grabbed

my cup of coffee from my 'assistant' and set my guitar case down. I let my mind wander to him, and

winced in pain as I recalled the memories of me, and then he walked into my life and me became an us.

Not long after that she came back into his life, and us became a me again, and him and her became a

them. I shook my head to clear the fog of memories and peeked out at the audience I would have today,

I scanned the crowd, my regular customers. A masculine laugh made me snap my head towards my far left,

there, he was here, I felt my chest tighten, making it harder for me to breathe, I fell towards the floor

and landed on all fours. My breathe coming in ragged breaths, my assistant went to my pack and got my

medication. She knelt next to me and forced the pills into my mouth and shoved a cup of water into my hand.

I threw my head back and forced myself to swallow them. I always hated taking my pills, I always prolonged

my taking the pills when I became like this. Always wishing I would die, but then he would always pop into my

mind, and forced me to live. And so I said to myself that I would see him one last time, and finally let him go.

My breath came out in pants and finally my breathing returned to normal. I strode across the room and

unlocked my guitar case, I took in a ragged breath and pulled out my guitar, went to sit on the stool.

My fingers hovered over the strings, I closed my eyes and silently mouthed the words to my song and strummed

softly. Everyone behind me scattered to get off the stage and watch me, the curtains opened and I opened my

eyes. My eyes swept to my far left, and locked gazes with his, I saw him stiffen in his seat, and stop what he was

doing, I offered a weak smile. I saw his eyes widen in bewilderment as he saw this. Finally, I let my gaze drop with

him and opened my mouth, my fingers strumming a sad melody. But, instead at that moment, I had the perfect song.I waved my assistant over and told her there's been a change of plans. My hand hovered over the microphone for

a moment then brought the microphone to my lips,

"I'm sorry everyone, but there has been a change of plans, so there will be a slight delay," I said, my soft voice

carrying throughout the lounge, a soft murmur roused from the crowd. I let out a sigh and watched the curtains fall.

I flipped open my phone and called a number I haven't called in years, the phone rung, and rung, until finally he

picked up.

"Hey, it's been a long time! What you need ?" he asked.

"Yeah, it has been long, but I need you and the guys to come over at Garasu No Namida on 8th st. downtown." I

asked of him, my voice soft and pleading. He was silent on the other end and for a moment I feared he would have

said no.

"Sure, we'll be there in 5." I let out a sigh of relief,

"Thanks Kouga," I said quietly,

"Hey, no problem Kags, You know I'd do anything you asked of me," he said softly.

I opened my mouth to answer him,

"But hey, I'll talk to you later," I heard him yell to the guys and heard the start of the car,

"See you Kagome."

"Bye Kouga." I hung up the phone and hurried towards the exit when my assistant came up to me and handed me a

pair of clothes and a note,

"It's unsigned and I couldn't figure out who sent them, the man had a dark hood over his face," she said. I looked at

the note in bewilderment and looked up suddenly. My gaze swept the room and immediately found him, his tender

golden eyes flickered in sadness before giving me a nod of his head, and melted into the shadows. My eyes flickered

to the clothing and let out a sigh. He always seemed to know what I needed every time I changed my plans. I went into

the dressing room and changed into the outfit, I wore a black skin tight skinny jeans with knee high combat boots, laced

up all the way, A bright blood red shirt that showed and inch of my skin with a dark black and silver skull necklace hanging

from my neck, on top I had a black leather jacket with blood splatters covering the front. On the back it had a black and

red phoenix rising up from it's ashes. Bright red lipstick coated my lips and dark eyeliner lined the rims of my eyes. My

eyelashes long and curved, while my hair was done in wild untamed curls. Snakebites, tongue piercing, and my ears.

I felt like a whole new, different, but good person. I stepped out of the dressing room and looked at the back door to

see Max and the gang come through. All of them hauling their own equipment. We set up at the stage and I looked at

Max,

"So, are we going as Osen sa reta Ketsueki?" I asked, they all looked up at me in surprise. Then Kouga and the gang started high-fiving

each other I looked at them in confusion. They stopped laughing and looked at me like I was crazy.

"OH Yeahh Baby, Osen sa reta Ketsueki is back from the dead!" They all cheered and I grinned, and joined them.

Finally, the stage was all set up and I had an electrical guitar in my hand. It felt good to have it back in my hands.

"Okay, you guys ready?" I asked, they all yelled in agreement and I gave a thumbs up to my assistant to pull the curtains

back. Everyone was startled by our appearance. Especially him. I placed my hand on the microphone,

"Hi there, my name is Kagome, and this is my band, Osen sa reta Ketsueki, which mean Tainted Blood."

"Why?" A voice called out from the crowd. I looked at all the other band members and they shook their head,

"Because we were all outsiders." I said softly.

"Now, we'll be singing Love/Hate Heartbreak by Halestorm."

(A/N: I suggest you listen to this song while reading the story from here on.)

It was silent for a moment, and then a burst of rock came out from the speakers, it went on like that for several

more seconds until I started singing.

Why did I waste my time ?

Two steps I don't rewind

Feeling I can't define

I give back to you

Give it all away

Take it all the way,

Give it all away,

Take it all the way,

I see My demise

From behind your eyes,

I can't pass you by,

I give back to you,

Give It All away

Take It all the way

Give It all away,

Take it all the Way,

Give it all away,

Take it all the Way,

Give it all away,

Take it all the Way,

I locked my gaze with him, he stared back in defiance, refusing to take the blame, refusing to admit he hurt me.

I looked away and swept the crowd, watching their reactions at us, some looked ready to cry, others trying not

to look at their other who sat across from them. I gave a little smirk knowing what they had done, or what

they're doing to their other.

Between Love,

Between Hate,

Shake this silence back

For it's tool late,

And It haunts you,

And it haunts you,

It's a Love Hate,

Heartbreak

This could be suicide,

A kiss with these Red Knives.

Why Am I Driving Blind ?

I give back to you,

Give it all away,

Take it all the way

Give it all away,

Take it all the way,

Try You On For Size,

I Thought Boys Don't Cry,

You're My Perfect Lie,

Yeah,

I Give Back To You.

I suddenly jerked my gaze back to his and gave a jerk of my head in his direction,

he jerked his head back in defiance, I let out a bit of a scowl but continued with the song.

I closed my eyes and let my body sway to the beat of the music

Give it all away,

Take it all the way,

Give it all away,

Take it all the way,

Give it all away,

Take it all the way

Give it all away,

Take it all the way,

Between Love,

Between Hate,

Shake This Silence Back,

For It's Too Late,

And It Haunts You,

And It Haunts You,

It's A Love Hate,

Heartbreak,

Between Love,

Between Hate,

Shake This Silence Back,

For It's Too Late.

Guitar Solo

Between Love,

Between Hate.

Shake This Silence Back,

For It's Too Late,

And It Haunts You,

And It Haunts You,

It's A Love Hate,

Heartbreak,

Between Love,

Between Hate,

Shake This  Silence Back,

For It's Too Late,

And It Haunts You,

And It Haunts You,

It's A Love Hate,

Heartbreak,

Give It All Away,

Take It All The Way

Give It All Away,

Take It All The Way,

The Song ended with a blast of guitar and I let my hair fall in front of my face and my head hung

low, my chest heaved, gulping in as much air as possible. It was all quiet and then suddenly everyone

screamed with joy and excitement, I looked up in surprise at the burst of applause we got. And

suddenly I felt a smile making it's way onto my face. I threw my head back laughing, tears coming from

my eyes, because I finally felt free, the weight on my shoulders suddenly wasn't there anymore,

and for that I was grateful. I looked at him once more and gave him a big smile, and waved. He looked in shock,

I laughed at his facial expression and turned my back towards him, and joined my crew. Kouga threw his arm around

me and suddenly I felt as if time slowed and I could see everyone's emotions. They were all happy and excited,

amused. I looked into a mirror across the room and saw my own emotions. And for once I felt happy, truly happy.